Journal (2025-12-07)

1.

What is the use of learning shastras (scriptures), If I am not able to use it to handle the life's unwelcomed crises and challenges. If I do act like the normal people driven by animal instincts and ego only with unconsciousness, what is the purpose of me investing time in self.

#ReminderToSelf

2.

I now realize that feminine and masculine energy. God has given us different body (male/female); but the Karma that we have to do is the same; but when we get female body, our expression of life becomes feminine way; and for male, the masculine way. And, being girl and having tons of feminine thing is not good or bad, it is their nature, like for caring, nurturing, doubting their loved ones, etc. And for male, It is their nature to be bold, think for the family, go and fight with the world and so on . I loved this how beautifully god had made us, the masculine and feminine energy.

3.

The more I am cleasning myself from all the aspects, the more I am getting more synchronicity from Universe. viz, I am able to get the vibes/intution of the events, before it occurs, I get in form of dreams, or in form of thoughts; about people that might call me (in phone), or will meet me, or will bring topic to some thing that I just got. I dont have exact clarity of how the things will happen but I am getting tons of intution nowadays.

And I noticed that, from few weeks I was again started to lie. in a subtle way. I am not that lier, I dont cheat anyone, but there is small part of me that does it automatically, it does slippery lies , not in big things , but in small small things in converstation. And, I was observing that thing was coming up again. I again started to tell people things as is. Even it is small thing, I dont want to lie on anything. I tell the truth.

For example: "If someone asks me , what have you eat today, I will tell the truth. On everything.

And, the more I cleanse more on subtle part of me, the more I become sync with universe automatically, I dont know why but It happens automatically. Because I dont have to hide anything, dont think of doing wrong to anyone/anything; If you ask me for heart to open up, I can openup for anything.

Also, in every event of my day, I am mostly aware, I observe the sounds/signals that comes in . For example, yesterday I was doing "Jug" puja , and I was listening to baby crying for short while, Dog barking in between and crow crowing for little bit of time. I observed that thing. And my mind was auto syncing that thing. (its meaning). Mostly I am in Shakshi bhaav , if not in shakshi bhaav, i basically observe the happenings outside of me, the environment , the sounds, the boards (sign boards/signals), the activity of people; everything is saying something.

When I try to connect the synchronized things, I dont exactly get the whole story or exactness for whom the thing will happen; but in general, it happens so randomly, I get amazed everytime. For example, I was seeing my father death from long time, and I was being afraid in first ; but I continue witnessing that image of syncrhonicity; and after few days of time, I happened to know that some of my friend father died, and few days back only the Kathmandu Mayor's Balen Shah father died. Another example; I dont know the exact date, I saw the large earthquake in my dream/synchronicity; and the next day, there was lot of fire in some part of the world, and major accidents.

These things are happening a lot to me.

And, the more I transcend the more of my old self, the more I get the synchronicity and it manifest within the hour, sometimes within the minute also.